Frostbite

I've already mentioned it but it's obviously worth mentioning it again.

We're trying to get a damn movie made here. We've definitely stalled out, just under $175,000 in over a week. I'm starting to feel things similar to what I felt the week the movie was released. Dread, doubt, sadness, anger, determination, loyalty, love. That's the range I'm constantly living in every day. Many times a day. It's a permanent obsession. My job keeps me away from twitter for a good part of the day but just cause I'm not there, I'm still checking the total all day, checking OVAM, checking my lists. One of the houses I clean, today the daughter had the entire VA box set on her book shelf. People KNOW about it, I don't know if they know about what's happening though.

Nothing's happening. There are little sparks, but the fire doesn't catch (I'm not trying to reference THG, it's just all I can think to compare with). It's so stressful and depressing to see, and to try SO hard to fix it and get nowhere. I've sent tweets to every famous person I can think of while they're active and online. Sent emails to TV shows, to TV producers, to film crew, to anyone I can think of that might RT a little favor for someone. No bites. It's like the terrible promotion the last time around has made everyone sour for anything to do with us and it's definitely not fair.

Maybe these fan made videos can be spread around and can explain the story better. We all know the fans would make the best promoters anyway, we've all been saying it since VA was fucked over. Maybe some of these perks that have been hinted at will draw in some more people, or maybe people are holding out to see the better perks. Maybe it's like an Ebay bid and nothing happens till the very last day then it goes way above and beyond. I have no clue, and that scares the shit out of me. This series deserves this. Richelle deserves this. The #VAFamily deserves it!

I donated $75 on the first day, I really couldn't afford it and I'm still suffering for it. And I honestly can say I don't want it back. I want this movie. I want to go to the theater and spend MORE money on it on it's first day wearing the shirt I'll get. I want a midnight screening, and a top promoted trend from the distributor like The Giver is having right now. Weinstien couldn't even do that for us, what makes The Giver so much better? Why did we get such a raw deal the first time around? So many things I just don't understand.

We need to come together collectively, somehow, and get behind our cause. Obviously everyone who's willing to donate so far, has. No one's going to back this out of nothing, but if we can tell them or show them why it's worth it we could still pull this off. I know if any fandom out there has the stamina and determination, it's us. EVERY challenge we faced last year we passed and won. Remember the poll when we got the Dimitri POV? Remember the MTV Movie Brawl? Remember all the other contests and polls and days and days and DAYS of voting and voting and voting? Now remember the deathly quiet our fandom has seen for the last 4 months?

We gotta start asking ourselves what would Rose do? And we need to start kicking some ass or we're going to go back to that silence. This will all be too painful for us and we're all going to move on with our lives and some day this will all be a distant memory. Believe me. It's happened to me with fandoms I thought were like family. That's not how our story ends guys!! We still have 5 movies!! We have years to know each other and to really become family. Look back only a year to the friendships you've made because of VA and how much they mean to you now. I know I have quite a few people in my life now that I don't even know what I did without them before.

VA is worth it and we need to show the world. I don't know how. I don't care how. But together we need to figure it out or it's over. Plain and simple.